xheartkasey

I'm Stuck. =(

I'm scared to tell you how i feel
Tonights the night
where you realize how i am
Ive been hiding behind a mask for a while now
your touch is full and pure.
my touch is nervous.
Ive wanted to tell you for soo long
Everything. without missing a word
I love you and just you

one breathe
one minute
is all i need for you
Every night when i fall asleep
i have this dream that come and haunts me
There's you and someone else.
He's not leaving
He's stuck just like i am.
And i dont know how to undo it
I know im happy with you
this poison wont leave.
It hurts to know, everything is repeatitive.
I wanna do something new with you
its all the same nothing has changed.

Inside of me i hear a new beat
for everytime i hear your name
&& i like it
But its hard to tell if its real
or fake.
I'm falling for you slowly.
i just cant help but think
that your the best i can get.
I'm not even sure though
my past is on repeats
and im scared.
Can you help me tonight?

one breathe
one minute
is all i need for you
Every night when i fall asleep
i have this dream that come and haunts me
There's you and someone else.
He's not leaving
He's stuck just like i am.
And i dont know how to undo it
I know im happy with you
this poison wont leave.
It hurts to know, everything is repeatitive.
I wanna do something new with you
its all the same nothing has changed.

Just remember who you are
and who i am
and perfect we just fit together
I wanna know your true.
and not fake.

one breathe
one minute
is all i need for you
Every night when i fall asleep
i have this dream that come and haunts me
But with yuo with me.
I feel save inside.


Sadly. I think this is my worse song ever!!!
I have a lot on my mind right now.
Sorry
<3

I have to work again today and i reallly dont want to. Superstore is boring. Now that i got switched departments. I dont understand anything that my mangers are telling me im sooo slow. I even question how i got the job. But seriously if you wanna work at the superstore bullshit your whole interview. They'll still hire you! haha
I'm so glad its friday Ive had no engery i need this weekend to sleep in.!!! which i cant :(
For once im like busy all weekend. Today im working until 10. Tomorrow im working 12-4. Then afterwards im hanging out with josh. Im excited for that. It will be fun. But i dont know if were going to the movies. I really rather not. but i wanna see stay alive. Then sunday. I'm not sure if im working again . but most likely i am. But i think im going over my brothers house. I miss my niece:( Its been forever since ive seen her.
ITS ONLY 2:17
I'm listening to June. Ive starting to really like them. Which would make a lot of sense seeing how there from Victory Records. And all there bands rock!! :)

I'm bored. Save me.

I think im going to write another song.

<33

Nicki asked me to write a song about her. So here it is.


Long Time Friends

See there this girl,
She smiles like the moon
So bright in the dark skies
But what I am I supposed to do?
She won’t even notice me
You see this girl to busy
Boy, I hope you know how lucky you are
To have a girl like you do
We shared memories
You laughed at all my jokes
And I can tell you anything

But this girl
I can’t have her
She’s too good for me
I’m scared I’ll hurt her
Or make her sick
I secretly got a disease
Scared she won’t like me when she finds out
All our jokes and laugh will die in a second

When I first met her it was magic
I was too shy to say hello
Thought you might see me as a freak
But then I got introduced to you
And it was magic, we hit it off

Her lockers only two away from mine
I hear her laughing
Wishing I knew what was funny
I see her pictures
I wish I could be in your locker too
Little does she know that my locker is covered with her pictures
Every time you look at me I gasp for air
Why do I get so nervous?

But this girl
I can’t have her
She’s too good for me
I’m scared I’ll hurt her
Or make her sick
I secretly got a disease
Scared she won’t like me when she finds out
All our jokes and laugh will die in a second

Now she sits next to me in 2classes
I’m glad were close
Because this girl is what makes happy
She helps with my problems
We have so much in common
To bad this much time had to pass
Cause now your taken
And my chances have faded.

But this girl I still can’t have her.
I’ll just settle for being friends

But this girl
I can’t have her
She’s too good for me
I’m scared I’ll hurt her
Or make her sick
I secretly got a disease
Scared she won’t like me when she finds out
All our jokes and laugh will die in a second

Escape from Regrets

Everything you placed your hands on you killed
I was broken from the beginning
This isn’t helping me
Cause now your touching me
Giving me this curse
Living the life of an empty soul
And unfulfilled dreams
Misery has entered my blood
Like a maze that has no end
No destination to wear were heading
Hoping we’ll end up somewhere far from each other
Just so this pain won’t come back

My eyes aren’t crying but my tears are red
I’ve said nothing but regrets.
Maybe my feet should walk backwards
Instead of towards you
You’re the devil in a mask
Underneath me everything is all fake
I’m tired of lying to you
Tired of lying to the ones I love
I shouldn’t put myself through this
But it’s all I know how to do.

Everything you placed your hands on you killed
I was broken from the beginning
This isn’t helping me
Cause now your touching me
Giving me this curse
Living the life of an empty soul
And unfulfilled dreams
Misery has entered my blood
Like a maze that has no end
No destination to wear were heading
Hoping we’ll end up somewhere far from each other
Just so this pain won’t come back

I just want to scream
Hoping the echo would turn back everything
To how it used to me
When we were all best friends
I watch the hands on the clock move backwards
And watch my life go by on rewind
I’ll pause on all my mistakes
Watch me how I die tonight
Know that I did this because of you
Because I love you
And I can’t stand lying to you anymore

Everything you placed your hands on you killed
I was broken from the beginning
This isn’t helping me
Cause now your touching me
Giving me this curse
Living the life of an empty soul
And unfulfilled dreams
Misery has entered my blood
Like a maze that has no end
No destination to wear were heading
Hoping we’ll end up somewhere far from each other
Just so this pain won’t come back
Everything you placed your hands on you killed
I was broken from the beginning
This isn’t helping me
Cause now your touching me
Giving me this curse
Living the life of an empty soul
And unfulfilled dreams
Misery has entered my blood
Like a maze that has no end
No destination to wear were heading
Hoping we’ll end up somewhere far from each other
Just so this pain won’t come back

This curse on me
It’s spreading and I’m running out of time to show you
I can’t prove the truth
When there is nothing to prove
Promises are meant to be broken
And love is filled for heartbreaks
Forever is hard to find
Which is why, me dying tonight
Will make you stay away from me forever.

I don’t understand
And I refuse to try
Cause ignoring me is what you best at
I blame this all on you…

My friend Nicki & I created this song today in English class. And i have to admit working together we made a pretty sweet song.
wouldn't you agree?



Mixed Blood with Pain

When you’re stuck
Keep in mind its only your imagination
She was only 13 when her parents split
No where to go
No where to hide
She turned to the only help she could find
Now she’s going crazy
Popping in the pills she gets
Wishing, hoping everything will get better
Fifty-three dollars an hours she’ll give you a show

If someone was there for her,
Maybe she wouldn’t be this way
She turned the wrong way
Selling her to live off life
Selling herself but lost her soul
You can have her for a short time
If you can pay the toll
She’s crying in the inside
And bleeding on the outside

No body notices her,
The marks, the scars, the tears she shed there all invincible.
She sits alone in the bathroom shall,
Getting her fix to take away all the feeling and pain
There’s no more room to cut, she’s dieing inside
But she isn’t going to quit.
Little does she know she two weeks pregnant,
With no idea who the daddy is
As the hands go by so does the precious life
She’s wanted to live,
Debuting if she should continue

If someone was there for her,
Maybe she wouldn’t be this way
She turned the wrong way
Selling her to live off life
Selling herself but lost her soul
You can have her for a short time
If you can pay the toll
She’s crying in the inside
And bleeding on the outside

She blames the world for her faults
Cursing at her parents
“Why did you put me though this?
Why can’t I just live a normal life?”
Now her scars are bleeding out blood
She tries to wash it away, but it keeps pouring
She starts to feel faint; she can see the white light
She screams in pain
Yelling mom and dad I love you.

She was only 13 when her parents split
No where to go
No where to hide
She turned to the only help she could find
Now she’s going crazy
Popping in the pills she gets
Wishing, hoping everything will get better
Fifty-three dollars an hours she’ll give you a show

She’s crying in the inside
And bleeding on the outside
She’s in the bathroom stall
Yelling mom and dad I love you
I love you
I love you
I’m sorry.
She starts to feel faint; she can see the white light
She screams in pain
Yelling mom and dad I love you.
She’s crying in the inside
(And bleeding on the outside)
She’s crying in the inside
(And bleeding on the outside)
She’s crying in the inside

Those words

(Verse)
I still remember all the words
To that voice that makes me emotional
I don’t want to hear it anymore
I want to say goodbye
No more tears, to your games
Bled enough for you this time
Can’t stand knowing what we had
Meant nothing to you
Why’d it take me so long to realize?
You were showing it to me the whole time
Remember these words
(Those words)

(Chores)
Those words, these words
(These words, these words)
I’m over you yet why am I stilling choking?
I can’t breathe the same air as you
You’re suffocating me
(These words, these words)
I’ll cry a million tears
So I can watch your drown
In the sorrow that you caused me
(That you caused me)
Just to prove I’m over you
(Those words)

(Verse)
I see the way you’re looking at her
Everything you did for me, you do for her
I’m scared to found out how much pain you’ll cause
To scared to find out who you really are
Every second I thought this was forever
Many times I thought I knew
But there were always more reasons
Why that isn’t true
Forever never existed to you

(Chores)
Those words, these words
(These words, these words)
I’m over you yet why am I stilling choking?
I can’t breathe the same air as you
You’re suffocating me
(These words, these words)
I’ll cry a million tears
So I can watch your drown
In the sorrow that you caused me
(That you caused me)
Just to prove I’m over you
(Those words)

(Verse)
Why is it so hard to let go?
When you used & played me
Done horrible things to all of your friends
Everything you’ve done was just for show
You’re a fake
Stop being something your not
I care too much for you, to see you get hurt
Even after all the times you hurt me
I still care
We had too much going for us
Too bad you lost your chances
I’ll never fall for you again

Why’d this have to be so easy for you?

(Chores)
Those words, these words
(These words, these words)
I’m over you yet why am I stilling choking?
I can’t breathe the same air as you
You’re suffocating me
(These words, these words)
I’ll cry a million tears
So I can watch your drown
In the sorrow that you caused me
(That you caused me)
Just to prove I’m over you
(Those words)

I just want you to know these words
(These words)
I’m over you
I’m over you
I’m over you
You’re suffocating me
So I’ll watch your drown tonight
In all the tears you made me cry
I’ve moved on
From you

Finally this world isn’t a blur.

I let someone like you in my life
And you’ve only made it worse
A thousand wishes were made
Hoping you would change
Into that perfect guy that I always wanted
You just can’t make someone perfect
Learned that the hard way
Now it’s too late to turn back the time

How could I be so blind?
All these feeling and thoughts
Of being with you
Hind me from seeing the truth
A big blur hoping that a clear,
Vision of you is perfect
But really under near everything
You’re just a big web of lies of pain
Getting ready to attack your next victim
Glad this didn’t work
Finally this world isn’t a blur

I only wish that you can understand
The way I felt was real
Like the diamond ring you promised me
I’m not your average girl
Things I offered are hard to find
Guess I wasn’t the only blind one
(How could I be so blind?)

How could I be so blind?
All these feeling and thoughts
Of being with you
Hind me from seeing the truth
A big blur hoping that a clear,
Vision of you is perfect
But really under near everything
You’re just a big web of lies of pain
Getting ready to attack your next victim
Glad this didn’t work
Finally this world isn’t a blur

You don’t even know
How much you hurt me
You took to long to make this happen
Too late to think that I won’t get hurt
These feelings already spread
Through everything that I’ve got

How could I be so blind?
All these feeling and thoughts
Of being with you
Hind me from seeing the truth
A big blur hoping that a clear,
Vision of you is perfect
But really under near everything
You’re just a big web of lies of pain
Getting ready to attack your next victim
Glad this didn’t work
Finally this world isn’t a blur

A thousand wishes were made
Hoping you would change
Into that perfect guy that I always wanted
You just can’t make someone perfect
Learned that the hard way
Now it’s too late to turn back the time
You took to long to make this happen
Too late to think that I won’t get hurt
These feelings already spread

All these feeling and thoughts
Of being with you
Hind me from seeing the truth
A big blur hoping that a clear,
Vision of you is perfect
But really under near everything
You’re just a big web of lies of pain
Getting ready to attack your next victim
Glad this didn’t work
Finally this world isn’t a blur

(How could I be so blind)
Turn back this time
Turn back this time
I want to forget this
I want to forget everything that happened
Turn back the time
(How could I be so blind)
To when the world was round
And I didn’t care how I felt about you
My future looks so empty since you left
(How could I be so blind)
How could I be so blind?

You’re moving on to fast

Maybe this wasn’t supposed to be
Never had a chance
But I can’t help Feeling the way I do
Forgive me so I can
Learn to forgive myself
Can’t help but blame myself for this fault
These memories this pain
Its still there

Some things are just better this way
But maybe I’m not ready for this
Your taking three steps ahead of me
Pretty soon your just going to be
Right out of my picture
Some things are just better this way
But maybe I’m not ready for this
Your taking three steps ahead of me
Pretty soon your just going to be
Right out of my picture
(You’re moving on to fast)

Please don’t tell me that, this is what you want
Because I don’t think I can handle that pain
Bad enough how it is
Knowing that you moved on
And you can’t stand to talk to me anymore

Some things are just better this way
But maybe I’m not ready for this
Your taking three steps ahead of me
Pretty soon your just going to be
Right out of my picture

These memories and the pain
Its all still there
My mind as moved on
But my heart hasn’t
I just want to scream your name
Hoping you’ll reply
But I know you won’t
Ever since we ended
You have had your hands full of girls

Some things are just better this way
But maybe I’m not ready for this
Your taking three steps ahead of me
Pretty soon your just going to be
Right out of my picture
(You’re moving on to fast)

Please don’t tell me that, this is what you want
Because I don’t think I can handle that pain
Bad enough how it is
Knowing that you moved on
And you can’t stand to talk to me anymore
Please don’t tell me that, this is what you want
Because I don’t think I can handle that pain
Bad enough how it is
Knowing that you moved on
And you can’t stand to talk to me anymore
Please don’t tell me that, this is what you want
(Please don’t tell me that, this is what you want)
Please don’t tell me that, this is what you want
(You’re moving on to fast)

Faster then a heart attack

The day we went wrong
It being played on repeats
I don’t love you anymore
I don’t love you anymore
Your biggest prank became real
And I was left looking like a fool

I keep looking at your pictures
Wondering what went wrong
Everything was always perfect
I’ll never understand
How it turned out like this
Hoping we’ll be okay
But no matter what we do or say
Those feeling, those memories we shared
They’ll flash in my mind
Faster then a heart attack

The day we went wrong
It being played on repeats
I don’t love you anymore
I don’t love you anymore
Your biggest prank became real
And I was left looking like a fool

I’ll ask you again
Is there still a change between us?
To make everything right like before
This time around
I’ve learned my mistakes
Up to you now to push the erase button
We’ll start new

The day we went wrong
It being played on repeats
I don’t love you anymore
I don’t love you anymore
Your biggest prank became real
And I was left looking like a fool

Do you ever stop and think about me?
Miss the memories?
Remember our first and last kiss like I do?
If only we felt the same from the start
I wouldn’t be here thinking about you

I keep looking at your pictures
Wondering what went wrong
Everything was always perfect
I’ll never understand
How it turned out like this
Hoping we’ll be okay
But no matter what we do or say
Those feeling, those memories we shared
They’ll flash in my mind
Faster then a heart attack

Red hair dye

Your feelings faded faster than my red hair dye
You always liked me with red hair
But everything you said doesn’t mean anything
Are you saying the same things to this new girl?
Don’t think that I’m hurt
My body is fine
It’s just my heart
(Heal me tonight)

Since this has happened
It hasn’t healed
You placed a hole in my heart
That the doctors can’t find.
You’re slowly killing me now
The longer I wait it gets worse
Harder to let you go

I know you’ll never understand
You’re too blind
Do you know what I mean when I say,
“I love you” you don’t.
I know because I’ve asked you
You’re my greatest missed memory

Your feelings faded faster than my red hair dye
You always liked me with red hair
But everything you said doesn’t mean anything
Are you saying the same things to this new girl?
Don’t think that I’m hurt
My body is fine
It’s just my heart

Now I only laugh that things aren’t going
To work for you
I still have everything you gave me.
It’s something I can’t let go,
But don’t think that this mean I still love you.

Your feelings faded faster than my red hair dye
You always liked me with red hair
But everything you said doesn’t mean anything
Are you saying the same things to this new girl?
Don’t think that I’m hurt
My body is fine
It’s just my heart

Since this has happened
It hasn’t healed
You placed a hole in my heart
That the doctors can’t find.
You’re slowly killing me now
Your feelings fade (fade) faster than my red hair dye